Around the Christmas season I love the hustle and bustle of shoppers. Of course, this could just be a side effect of being a shopaholic. I love everything about the holiday season, it’s my favorite time of the year. The Christmas trees, twinkling lights, warm fireplaces, hot cocoa and everything else that comes with the perfect Christmas. But, then I start to think about the real “reason for the season” as the cheesy saying goes. I begin to think about Mary, Joseph and the newborn Messiah. I think of how much faith and trust Mary had to instill to the Lord to carry His Son. I mean, back in her day she would’ve been killed if it hadn’t been for the faithfulness of God. If Mary can trust her safety and livelihood to God with the stakes so high, then what am I waiting for? What are you waiting for?
I’m sure even though the angel said, “Do not be afraid, Mary; you have found favor with God,” Mary didn’t feel like she was favored by God. I wonder if there was a split second of doubt that crossed her mind. There might have even been times when she felt like this miraculous thing God was doing through her life was a burden. I know there had to be times when she became doubtful and scared. I wonder if she ever lost sight of the big picture. Did she ever forget God’s plan? Maybe she didn’t even know God’s full plan for Jesus and everything that would come of His death and resurrection on the cross.
So many times I doubt God’s bigger picture. He doesn’t ever give us a master blue print of what our life is going to look like. That’s the beautiful and mysterious thing about God. Although, this can sometimes frustrate a type A, organized control freak like me it pushes me toward God. I have to hold on to Him because that’s all I can control. Ultimately, I have no control over anything except for my trust in Jesus.
I want God to use me like He used Mary. I want Him to look at me and say, “that is the girl I want to use to carry out My mission. I want her to be My vessel. I want her to be the girl I turn to when I need something done.” I want to be so in tune with God that He knows beyond a shadow of a doubt that I will carry out His mission and do it well.
Over the past couple of years I’ve watched God reveal His plan for my life day by day in His own perfect timing. I think this is what He did for Mary also over the course of her life. I don’t always understand why God does the things He does or why He lets things happen like He does. This is why hope is so important. There’s hope that one day I’ll see God’s bigger plan. I think Mary had to hold on to this same hope. But, for now I’m just trying to be content being a small puzzle piece in the grand scheme of His plan.